A Little Talk on Some Big Problems.

    I want to talk a little about Anxiety and Depression. I know, I don't write a whole lot anymore, only ending up writing in the middle of the night. This is important.
   It has dawned on me tonight, that my Anxiety and Depression (A&D for short) has gotten a little better. It is not all the way there yet, but it is better. Sometimes I think there is no hope, but we only have to look back at our pasts to see how far we've come. My fellow folks with these problems, you know what I mean and how it is.
  I have thrown up for a whole month, and couldn't eat much.
    I couldn't sleep alone in a room by myself.
Was afraid of people, going down the street, of the past and of the future.
   I haven't thrown up now since August. That passed. Only a week ago did the November/December long every night cryathon subside. I can sleep in my room with the door closed. I can walk down the street, meet and interact with so many people, but am still afraid of the future, still have confidence problems and a warped body image.
   However, THINGS ARE LOOKING UP.
There's This odd relationship I have with God. I believe he helped give me all the problems that I have and have had with my physical and emotional health, however, I do believe that he has taken a good chunk of those problems away. I have a feeling they may come back, that even Cancer might return, but for now, a raging ocean is a rippling stream. Not too bad.
   I am not going to force my belief on you, I hate being preached to, and don't claim a religion or label myself. I believe in God, yes, but I am NOT going to shove it down your throat, this is not what this post is about.
  This post is for those who are going through somethings emotionally, and might need a little hope.
  The feeling does not fully go away, but it does get a little better, you are going to be constantly fighting.
  I just want to tell you this. Do not stop eating, or let your emotions get so bad, that all you can do is throw up all the time.
It's not good for you. If you cry a lot, that's a whole different story, I have no remedy for that, because I am a light switch and can't get a hold on it yet.
  Just don't stop eating, and try to gather your reasons for living, no matter how bad, you DO NOT want to kill yourself.
The World is BAD. It is. But there are so many good things.
So many places, even in your own home state to go and see.
So many people to get to know, so many hugs to give.
So much good food to eat out there.
   And I think you are pretty awesome.