How seriously do you take something that a person says to you, or says about you?
Does it roll right off your back?
Or does it linger, fester, and eat your heart alive?
We are going to talk about this.
See, you can handle it one of those two ways. I only wish that I could handle it like option one.
When you feel like a nothing, if someone says something to you, and it pretty much discredits all you are trying to do, do your best, make your way, make you feel like even more of a nothing....woah.
It's as if that self worth that you don't have, has taken an even lower dip into those negative numbers.
Now, you are at war, once again with yourself. It's not a good way to be living.
So for quite a few days, this has been the story, not even being able to take the way those words felt, til I had a talk with my mother, like I always do.
Thing about my mother is, she knows what's up. You can't hide diddley squat from her. And she has a lot of the answers. One thing she showed me, is that she has never cared what anyone negative things anyone said. She's got her own thing going, and if anyone thinks they can say something to her, and change the way she marches for the worst, well tough cookies, they are going to be disappointed. This woman WEARS ARMOR.
She made me realize, who cares? I just need to keep doing what I am doing and not let those things get me down. When you have low self esteem, things will hit you, knock you down, who knows when you get up again? Mama never had this problem.
So, I am going to take her advice, and not let this stuff eat at me. I don't need another battle to fight. I've been fighting stuff since I was a little girl, I've had it.
After this, on the way back up the steps to home after a pretty eventful night, where it just got to me too much, I took a deep breath and said: "I'm gonna be ok". And Mom said: "Yes, you are".
So I want to pass on some of her wisdom, maybe it will help somebody out there.
Just let it roll off your back. Keep doing all of the good that you are doing. You will be ok.
I love my mother, darn it.
I love you too kiddo! You are going to be okay.
ReplyDeleteBest advice ever. Keep on going!
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